Saturday, February 18, 2006

To Quit or not to Quit

All of us have asked this to ourselves at some point.
My first day at the new office was amazing. New atmosphere, new people and new work. Though a bit unsure as to what the future might bring. Soon I felt the cynic in me possessing my self, and its been all downhill from there.

The work you do makes absolutely no difference, and your own ideas about how things should be is just overturned by the system. Okay its time for the cliche. I hate my job. Simply because this is not what I want to do. Being a bit IT specific, this is not the toolset I want to use, this is not the technology I want to work with, and this is not the platform I want to work on. There is simply too wide a gap between my skillset and the work I'm asked to do. But the pay is good. Yes, the ace of spades, the company's trump card. Being one of the largest biggies in the IT industry, the company has absolutely no qualms in shelling out the dough. And definitely it does not help your confused state of existence.

To quit or not to quit.

I started on a technology, and a platform, and was on it for about two years, the technology was amazing, the work interested me . I lived it, breathed it and loved it. Working in a start up, back then, I quickly rose up among the ranks, and I got the attention and some really quality work, work that got a lot of attention. I also worked with some of the most amazing talents and more importantly, amazing people I have ever known. But that was not to last. But that was not to last, a little imp sat on my shoulder and whispered 'Money !'. The frustration of working in a start up is quite something. The office politics and the back stabs are more prominent than bigger MNCs. In a small company, getting attention and visibility is everything, but as the organization grows bigger, its becomes more about numbers and less about your persona, which is good. The flipside though is, as the organization needs numbers, you need to work by the numbers. There is no longer the 'freedom of expression'. Things become routine, mundane, and you think about just numbers. Life's hue shifts to grayscale. And you think ...

To quit or not to quit.

Its hardly six months since I came in to my new job, but every second I'm working, everything inside me screams 'Leave this Job !'. But that imp is still on my shoulder. I started to look beyond the shortcomings and enjoy life, since nowadays I get a lot of time to myself. So its not all that bad. The thing is your own perspective. How you want to look at it. Back then I loved my job, and was very satisfied with my professional life, but I had no time for my friends or family.
Now I enjoy my personal life very much, but work has become something I have to do, rather than something I want to do. I read somewhere that there are three things in your job: work, people and money. And if you are happy with at least two of them , then don't quit. But I myself think that its not always about your job only, its about you. What you are and where you want to be, how you see yourself, and how you want to be seen. There should be four things: quality of work, quality of life, money and the big one, how happy or satisfied you are about your own life and its course. If you think three out of these four are going in your way, then don't quit.

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